My_Path_ By Mamita

[adithya]

Yo guys, if you guys knew @mamita , you would now know that he isn't active anymore. This is because of a shitty internet situation, and there is a possibility that he might not return. In light of this, he left me with his scattered thoughts and some of his literature. He asked me to do with them as I saw fit, and I have waited for some time now, and have decided that no other time less would be suitable. And thus:

My Path
              -By @mamita

I see it through their eyes, heart pounding.
I love their loves, I live their lives,
I know I'll see it the way they did.
I'll grow up in a world that strives
to beat you down and shut you under a lid.
I'll make my own path, I won't be a parasite
I'll have money and love and friends and
I'll have all the things that I might
I won't be confined to just one path,
just one job. I'll do whatever I want, with no fear.





But I am blind. I see through their eyes,
dreaming while my own are shut.
And I am young, with too many stories
and none of my own.
I slide towards the edge of a crevice,
and I don't bother to grab at the ice
that hurts my hands, with cracks that slice
and bleed my fingers, that are not precise
for they don't know where to move and what to trust,
as I go numb-

I have no idea where I'm going.

I'm staring into an eternal night,
a cavern of unknown depth.
Before I start moving my feet forward

Where is my torch?

Do I really want to move forward?
Maybe I can stay here, unmoving forever.
Maybe I'll be safe.

Standing here, frozen in fear.
I'm not safe anywhere-
I'm surrounded by darkness.
WHERE DO I STEP?
The question drives me mad.
Memo to self: Watch documentary on Krokodile drug

[Toratsume Nyshn]

Quite surprised mamita indulged into poetry.

So its titled 'my path', it doesnt actually describes the path he chose, it rather signifies the road that he wants to pave, his own path (~my path).
Clever.

Overall the poem is very good, except for I do not know fully comprehend the second stanza.
Good job to Mamita, hope he'll get better intrnet soon

[Manuster]

Memo to self: Watch documentary on Krokodile drug

was this supposed to be part of the poem xDD


As for the poem, it seems like a really exaggerated conflict between wanting to pursure a career, or several careers, but not necessarily knowing how to do so.

At least for me kek

Ahhh poetry

[taigakun]

Goddamn i liked this alot. To me it felt like the poem was implying he wasn't living his life the way the wanted, but the way others wanted. That's what i got from this anyway.

But loved the poem tho

[luckycmsn]

Damn, I really love this and I can relate to it somehow.

Great job and hope you'll be back @mamita

[Fraudulent]

The way I interpreted it is that he wants to make independent choices and take his own path, but he doesn't know where to go and what to start with. He's questioning whether to go there or remain where he is currently situated - where he feels safe.

Mamita, come back. Although we don't have the strongest of bonds, I'll miss you ;-(.

[adithya]

I'm so glad this sparked some conversation. I'm sure he'll be back. So cheers guys ^^

[mamita]

Oh.

Oh my. I certainly wasn't expecting any of that to get published.
I've completely missed this topic for a long damn while.
Regardless, I'm happy to see you like it.

@Manuster You're half correct. I was worried about my social situation, the first job I  might get, and wether I'll actually do anything with my life others than reading stories. Though that would of course depend on my situation changing first...
And no, that krokodile note was not part of the poem. Just something I kinda wrote down and forgot xD.

@Snoopy you're verry correct. Andthe same for you.
@luckycmsn Oh? That's interesting. @taigakun I'll always like you guys.
I still have a shitty situation, (typing th his to you from a phone... no real internet and this thing is slow as shit.)
but I very much hope that can change soon.

I hope I'll see you all very soon.
In the meantime you want to continue and upload The Wanderer, @adithya ?

P.S. Man.

Everything looks so shitty on a phone.