My heart at your mercy

[Fraudulent]

I gave you everything that I had, my heart, my soul and my attention
For you I gave all my savings – I pushed away my hobbies and family, not to mention
Every single morning I would leave you a heartfelt message that you would ignore
All these paragraphs and images that you store, but you send none back, what for?
Why do I have to constantly bug you to reply? Only to find a half-assed response that makes me sigh
In the beginning it was bearable, but progressively grew worse
I now open the curtains with a depressed mind set, knowing that my messages are meaningless and inside it hurts.
I changed almost completely just to fit your ideal
What was once a ‘big man’ is now a ruined boy waiting for his heart to heal
I wonder what it’s like for someone to put 100% effort into me
I don’t know… Why don’t you tell me? How does it feel?
Well done, you made a big man cry
Who would have guessed that a little girl would drain my soul dry
I would spend countless days at school in silence wondering why I’m down
A void within me was starting to form due to the lack of effort I received, but I didn’t make a sound
Looks like the phrase “Die in silence” had a more literal meaning
But I still endured it all, and my love for you kept gleaming
They say in relationships there is trial and error
At first I didn’t believe that, but it seems this was my trial and you were the error
I was the victim and you were the terror
You were the shadow, and I was the torch-bearer
I remember when we first got together, I didn’t think life could get any better
Now I see things from a different view, and they could have definitely been fairer
I hope you now understand why I’m usually not in the mood
Regardless of all the times you said it, I still don’t think I’m your perfect dude
Not even the sharpest tools could bottle up this pain
But it’s too late now, my arm is leaking from the vein
Hopefully this will erase your stain
Metaphorically speaking – I shouldn’t have sheltered you from the cold, harsh rain.

[Reminance]

This... is so depressing right now but it's so funny that i'm going through a rough time right now and i can only relate to this sadly..

+Rep for this

[Fraudulent]

This... is so depressing right now but it's so funny that i'm going through a rough time right now and i can only relate to this sadly..

+Rep for this

It's unfortunate that you're dealing with these issues. At-least you're not alone.
Glad you enjoyed the poem.

[Toratsume Nyshn]

ngl...it gave me tingles in my tummy... and that means it was more than just another good read....

[Yamasukage]

My heart at your mercy, the story of my life last year man T-T

[taigakun]

liked this alot
love how relateable it is
++rep

[CADAEMOS]

Shit man... Stay strong!!

[Manuster]

Just wow man...just wow

[DarthTyrael]

Too depressing ;_;  so many feels..  must get tissues.
Stay strong man, you too remi
+rep

[adithya]

fug man ;=; Hope you feel better soon.

[America]

You ok there buddy?

[Fraudulent]

I honestly didn't expect such positive and supportive feedback from you guys. Thank you a lot! Reading these posts made me feel a lot better!

ngl...it gave me tingles in my tummy... and that means it was more than just another good read....

Thank you! Honestly this was a less than a 10 minute wrap-up whilst I was breaking down. Not much thought went into it, just threw all my current thoughts and emotions into a piece of text.
 

fug man ;=; Hope you feel better soon.

Thanks, bro

Too depressing ;_;  so many feels..  must get tissues.
Stay strong man, you too remi
+rep

I need more than one toilet paper roll.
Thank you! I will attempt to redeem my feels.

Just wow man...just wow

:/

Shit man... Stay strong!!

Will do!

liked this alot
love how relateable it is
++rep

Ah, I hope you get through whatever you're experiencing. Message me if you want to talk.

My heart at your mercy, the story of my life last year man T-T

Sad bro